I sense the Lord say that heaven rejoices over your life and even though there have been times you haven’t exactly been rejoicing (over your own life), you always knew that your life had and has a purpose beyond that which you could see and at times, even now see.
There is a hunger to go deeper and go further, and no matter what you and Jesus achieve together, there is always more to do, more to go, more to see and more to experience and it is as if in the spirit the ceiling that you know is above you is lifting and lifting some more, and at times it almost “scares” you to see the fullness of what it is that the Lord has for you. Not scare you in the sense you are not going to take it, I believe you are approaching it with all your focus and heart, but “scary” or more so, exciting as in will take you places (in the spirit even) you have never been to and bring you a sort of a gifting you yet have to be “comfortable” to operate in, and the one the Lord is highlighting to you might not be one that comes easiest, even though you take it with thankfulness and gratitude.
I sense the Lord say that there is a chamber in your heart He is opening up and expanding to fill up and over, not that you are lacking anything, this is going to be added upon. It will make you even more aware of His manifested presence in ways you haven’t necessarily noticed before. There is a new boldness, clarity available to you. A very strong “outline” of who Jesus is and was, and there will be even greater understanding to what He means when He speaks and with that suddenly whole passages of His word will “slide” into the right and perfect perspective for you.
Again, it is not that you don’t know or understand Jesus, but there is a greater authority behind it with the sudden revelation of what some of His Word means, and as they come so much alive, river of those Words will start to flow, symbolically speaking, in the cavern and underground pipes of your life. The Word will manifest through your core being into all that you believe and do. Where in some areas you stepped out believing God for His Word, you will step out from the Word, for it has so mangled itself with your own being, that it becomes your foundational belief system at default. It is going to become easier and easier to believe for the great things, for it is becoming who you are.
His grace has broken your heart for those that are lost, those that are weeping, those that are in need and the Lord desires for you to know, that even though your service and worship towards the Lord has been massive and has touched many lives, the way He is going to touch people through you will have no limitations so don’t let any man give you limitations.
I hear don’t be concerned of new responsibility, for as much as you carry responsibility and are willing and more then capable to do so, you will approach a level of responsibility that, because of your heart to do it right before the Lord, will have you feel just a bit inadequate, but I hear the Lord say, that He sees you as fully equipped and ready.
He is going to establish you in corners of this world that desperately need you and Jesus walk by. It might even be that you already know which people God is speaking about. I sense there has been preparation in your heart for the more (this group), as much as some days you might wish, it wasn’t really so, as the thought of this particular group is stretching a bit or better yet, brining you to a new level of mercy and grace, not as in you reject them, not at all, it is more in how to approach them without being misread.
I sense the Lord is saying He will go before you and in that expand His anointing in lines and patterns that will make it easy for you to walk in and become that for this group that Jesus wants to be. I sense this might seem a bit controversial to some, but to know that He is leading you.
I sense that there has been lot said (to you) that could have been taken the wrong way, lot brought to your face in trying to tell you to do (it) differently, but the Lord would have you know, that He made you this way because it took a man of your stature to do what He is asking you to do.
Rest in Him for He is all for you and just as He knows every strand of hair on your head He knows what makes you joyful, what makes you celebrate, and He celebrates you and with you, for all that you win, and even for all that you lose, for what you lose will come back to you, some seven fold and some ten fold. I also sense He is saying not to look at the years as markers of lost time, but as markers of life well lived. Your years have been lived well.