Conversations with God- Trust and Obey

Book 3 Message 8

Trust and Obey

God:

How are you doing?

Matthew:

I am pretty good tonight. I can’t sleep. I have slept too much today. Here I am motivated and led to have another conversation with you. I enjoyed our conversation so much yesterday. People who read it on Facebook liked it also. That is always a good sign.

God:

It is great when you can get feedback on what I say to you. That is good for you. I want to move you into a place where you will just hear from me and speak for me no matter what the feedback. I have been moving you to state where you don’t need as much feedback on your prophecies that you do for people now. You used to have to have a lot of feedback. Now you don’t need feedback as much. That is because of your confidence that you are hearing from me.

Satan is always having a go at you. He likes to say to you that your prophetic gift is no good. He likes to say that your prophecies are all the same and that you have no variety in them. He hates you prophesying to people because he knows how powerful that they are. So he wears you down by saying you are not as good at your gift as people you admire. He has you comparing yourself to others and this leads you to think that you are no good at all. He simply wants to discourage you.

II want you to know that you carry the voice of my son Jesus with all your prophecies and they really encourage people. I want to say that I really love you gift. Like James Goll said of you, your prophecies don’t just come from giftedness but they come from a place of real humility and love. You made him cry when he heard his prophecy. You made Heidi Baker cry also. I want you to know you don’t make my generals cry without carrying my son’s words and anointing.

You cop so much attack. Yet you continue. You make me so proud of you. You are not the smartest. You are not educated. You don’t know the Bible like some people. You struggle with mental illness. You struggle from a life full of pain and suffering. And yet you carry on and do what you are called to do.

So many times, I have seen you tired and not feeling in the mood to prophesy, and you have gone to refund the money and tell the people you are not feeling well, and then you have been stopped by the compassion that you have for them. You think how sad it would be for them to feel rejected by you, and you think how you would not like to have your money returned and not get your prophecy, and you stop going through the process of cancelling the request and you prophesy.

You trust in us. When you feel that you are not adequate, you trust us. When you feel that you are not up to prophesying, you lean on the Holy Spirit. Many of those prophecies that you almost cancel turn out to be very powerful prophecies. It seems the enemy knows when a powerful prophecy is going to be released and he makes you tired and worn out. But most of the time you push through and people are really blessed. Most of them don’t even know that they almost didn’t get a prophecy.

You have no real idea of your future. You don’t know how you will cope travelling to other countries and being able to adjust and sleep at night and be able to minister to people. You have no idea how your health is going to go. There exist so many unanswered questions when it comes to your future.

You simply trust us. You simply trust us with everything that we lead you to do. When we ask you to do something, you obey without question. When we lead you, you cooperate. You simply believe that we know what is best for you. You have no idea when doors will open to preach. You have no idea when your prophecies are going to come true. You have no idea when you are going to become really popular. And you have no idea how you are going to handle all the attention when you do become much sought out and busy.

All you know, is that we have your life planned. All you know is what to do each day. All you know is to obey the leading of the Holy Spirit each day. You have such a simple faith. You simply trust us. You have so many unanswered questions and yet still you trust us and obey us. You simply do what you feel the Holy Spirit leading you to do each day and at every hour.

Some people might think that you have it all together. Some people look at your life, who have read your books and think that they would love to have a life like you. Many of them have no idea that you have worries and concerns that weigh on you. They may think that you are some sort of super Christian, and in some ways you are, but they don’t know your struggles and concerns each day.

I guess that is why it is good for me to speak to you like this. I wish that the world could know that I am not a far off God who does not see things or care for people. I see very part of your life. I know everything that you are doing every part of the day. I see each day when you call your special friend Mary. I see how much pleasure you get from having a friend that has read your books. I see each day when you struggle with your sleep. I know your every thought and your every concern. I know, I see and I care.

I don’t think people know that I care about them. I think that most people think that I am too busy in heaven to care about what is going on in their lives. I think that many people still think that I am an angry God. I am sure that many people think that they can’t approach me while they have sin in their lives that they are struggling with. Many people have no idea of who I am or what I am thinking of. They don’t know me.

Oh, that I wish that people could simply sit down and type my words also and hear me speak. I wish that people could be my friend. I have feelings also. I have concerns and cares and things that get me down. I have a world full of children that don’t know me. It is not meant to be like this. People should know me. People should be able to hear from me. People should grow to become my friends also like you are to me.

I don’t want to be alone anymore. I don’t want people singing me praises and praying one-way prayers to me. Sure, that is good and helpful but there is so much more. There is so much more. I have so much to say to people. I have so much on my heart. I have so many things that I can say to people. I have so many thoughts for their lives and directions for them.

I want to be personal with people. I want to be able to come down and sit and talk to people face to face. I want to be able to visit them and speak to them like a friend. I want to celebrate with them and cry with them. I want to comfort them and lead them. I want to see each person become everything that they are destined to become. I want to help people and be relevant to their lives.

I don’t want to be some entity in heaven. I don’t want to be a far off God. I don’t want to be this figure head. I don’t want to be what people treat me as. I want to have friends. I want people to really know me and speak with me. I want to to be a part of their lives. I want to share their lives with them in an intimate way.

Matthew:

This is called conversations with God but this time you had a lot to say. I took a break to answer two chat messages on Facebook that came in. I am not sure that people really know all of this about you. I think people think that you are joyful, happy and contented in heaven.

I think these conversations are not only helpful for me to have with you, but they show aspects of you and your feelings that people might never have considered before.

God:

I have so much to share with you Matthew. It is important that people see that this subject is trust and obey. It’s important that people see that you trust me with your future even though you don’t know how it will work out for you. You simply trust me.

It is important that people also see that you continue to obey me in everything. Even though you have struggles, fears and concerns, you still obey us with your life. Each day you sit down to do what we put on your heart to do. Each day you go about doing what you are led to do. We love that about you. One day, when you work it out, you will write a book on How to walk in the Spirit and do what he says at every part of your day.

You have had your struggles and sins that you have battled with for so many years, but we have loved you through all of it. You have felt dirty and unworthy to be loved, and yet though all of that time you have trusted us and obeyed us in all that we asked of you. I am so thankful for you. You are so faithful to us. Many are called but few of them can be trusted. You are trusted by us.

You can close this conversation off now and try and proofread it and post it on your blog. It has become a little long. I got carried away pouring out my heart to you. You can do another conversation if you feel up to it later in the night. I want you to stay up tonight for a time. Love you Matthew.

Matthew:

I love you dad

God:

Bye for now. Post this.