Getting real with God Part 6

Journal 6

God:

How are you today Matthew?

Matthew:

I can’t shake the tiredness that I feel. I am just tired, I slept for most of the day and all I want to do is go back to sleep, It is hard to stay up and do this homework and to stay up tonight for counselling tonight.

God:

It is true that you are tired. You really need to come into the   anointing to be able to wake up. I feel for you and I wish I could reach down from heaven and wake you up. Recording my words will help you concentrate and get to some semblance of being awake. I applaud you for starting your homework. You won’t always be in the mood to do what needs to be done. You won’t always be fully refreshed when you need to do something in the future. It helps for you to get practice now of stepping out in faith because things need to be done.

Matthew:

I enjoy you speaking to me. I am so happy that you take the time to come and visit me and speak to me. I see you now on my sofa and you are so happy to see me as I see you smiling at me.

God:

You are like a precious gem to me. I desire you to grow closer and closer to me, one way that you will do that is for me to come down and speak plainly to you. I love to speak to you and share my heart with you. You are so hungry and you are so obedient. It is simply a joy to know you and to fellowship with you.

I want to share with you how useful and touching your books are to your readers. You really know how to lead people into a right relationship with us. I want you to think about the quality of your books and not so much the numbers that are being sold each month. I want you to understand that your books are really helping people come to know Jesus and me. I am so happy with what you have done. You have worked tirelessly and produced 43 books so far. You are a treasure and precious gem to me.

You look at yourself though earthy eyes. You see yourself through your own limited understanding. You don’t see yourself as a precious gem in my possession even though I have said it twice in this journal post. You see your own failures, your own limitations, and faults and you think that is all that you are. You don’t see the precious part of yourself. You don’t view yourself through the eyes of heaven. You really have no idea how useful you are to the kingdom of God. You are amazing and yet you don’t even know it. That is amazing in itself and it keeps you humble.

I love your humility. It is not false humility or pride pretending to be humble. It is true humility. It is so good to see and experience in a man of God that has influence and favour. I will continue to speak to you and lead you into all that you were born to do.

Matthew:

Thank you Father.

Openness and vulnerability 6

Matthew:

What lie am I believing?

Father:

You think you have to be busy in my kingdom to be loved and accepted. You don’t think you can be still and quiet and also be loved by people. It is this lie that keeps you producing books and posting on Facebook each day.

I want to address this in you today. I want you to know that you are loved no matter what you are doing. I want you to know that you are worthy to be loved and accepted simply by being you. You don’t have to strive and do things to be loved. You don’t have to “earn” your salvation.

This is important for you to know. We want you to write out of inspiration and our will instead of feeling you have to do it because it is your calling to be a prophet and a teacher. Up till now you have been doing well, but today we need to remove this bondage off you. We need you to enter into rest. We want you to minister to people out of a state of rest and not to be striving to be accepted and loved by us and people who are your readers.

Matthew:

This is true. I could not see this. I could not get into the right frame of mind to edit The Apostle Paul speaks from Heaven and I was feeling guilty for it and yes that is just a result of this lie. I need to know that I am loved and accepted just as I am and not for what I accomplish. Father, it is hard to feel that I am loved without me doing anything. It is hard to fathom.

Father:

Yes, I know that about you Matthew. That is why I spoke to you about it. It is the same as grace. Under grace, you need not obey the law that has passed away but if you are freed by moving in the law of love, you will naturally fulfil the law without trying or striving. The same is true, if you move away from thinking that you have to produce results to be loved, and instead enter into the rest of the Lord, you will be led by us to produce results and they will be better quality results.

This homework is exciting for you each day. Today you had no idea what we were going to say to each other, and here we have had plenty to say. I will always have something helpful to say to you. Now it is time for the Courts of Heaven.

Matthew:

Thanks Father for speaking to me.

Courts of Heaven 6

Jesus take me to the courts.

I see the court. Thank you Father for being here. I honour you and thank you for being my judge. Thank you Jesus for being here. I honour you. I honour you angels for being here. I want to thank my personal angels for coming up here and standing with me. I want to give you praise God for this courtroom. I am pleased that you are teaching how to operate here and how to petition you for results.

I see the accuser. He is a tall demon and he says I need to produce results to be loved.

I agree with my accuser. For this is what I believed and how I acted. Father I publically repent for this wrong way of thinking. I reject this way of thinking now and I ask that you remove this lie from my life.

Father:

I agree that this was the way that you thought my precious son Matthew. You are a precious son to me and you need not strive to be loved by me.  I forgive you for this way of thinking and declare that you will no longer be thinking this way anymore. I cleanse you in the blood of Jesus and wash you.

Here is a scroll that says that you need not perform works to be loved by is or others. Put it on your wall next to your computer.

I judge the accuser and send him to be dealt with.

Matthew:

I praise you Father and thank you for handling this judgement and accusation. I want to thank you Jesus for being here. I ask that my angels and the Holy Spirit help me to think in a new way as I go about life and try to perform in the future. I ask the witnesses to this case to help me to become a new man.

Thank you court.

II ask this court to bring judgement against the firm that hurt Bill Vincent and that they be called to make restitution to him. I ask that you cancel all their future plans to sue Bill. Father prosper Bill and help him start to earn a good income by bringing new clients to him. Thank you in advance for acting in this way for him.

I bid the court good night. Thank you all.