Journal 15
God:
How are you today?
Matthew:
I am in a good mood. I stayed up to 3 am listening to a new audiobook that I feel you led me to. It has touched my heart a few times already. I slept in, so I am a little late to my homework. But here I am.
God:
Here I am too. We are together. In fact, I never leave you. I am always with you, not only through the presence of the Holy Spirit, but I watch you from heaven each day. Even as you sleep, I watch over you. You are very special to me. As are all of my children.
You got the idea to list the scriptures in the book, you have written, Your Identity in Christ, and do another version of the book, an updated version of the book. That was not just your idea, that was an idea from heaven. We want you to explore the truth about your identity. We want you to have a fresh look at those verses and see how they personally effect you now that you have been free for a while from your sins you were struggling with when you wrote the book.
You will need to commit to finishing the book on Apostle Paul and also do the interview with Mary Magdalene and then you can start on your new book, Your Identity in Christ updated edition. I have much work for you to do. You are not going to stop writing through this healing season. I am going to use you to touch people right in the midst of your healing journey.
This will prove to people, in the future, that a person can minister and touch people’s lives at any state in their journey. Even in your weakness we will use you. Your life will be a testimony as to how true Paul’s words were about how he triumphed over his weaknesses.
Matthew:
It gives me a good feeling to be asked to do another book on our identity in Christ. I really feel I need to hear what the Holy Spirit will have to say about these verses that are in it. You keep on giving me things to do and things to look forward to doing. You are good to me.
God:
You are good to me also Matthew. You are a delight to us in heaven. It is not just what you write that pleases us, it’s who you are to people, the people that I love. You are a great son indeed. You make us proud. A person prophesied over you today, that all the words you have written in your books truly came from us and not one of them have been wasted. That really touched you. You doubted that a little. But I want you to know that it is true. You really do share our words with people even when you are talking about yourself. You are a splendid communicator and very much led by the Holy Spirit. Take care.
Openness and vulnerability 15
Matthew:
What lie am I believing?
Father:
You believe that you need to perform to earn my love. This lie comes from the belief that my son’s blood was not enough for you. You have this performance mentality. It is hard for you to accept that we love you just for who you are. It is hard for you to see yourself and worthwhile and valuable in our kingdom without you doing anything.
That is a lie we have to deal with in the courts. You are valuable to me. People that know you and talk to you over the phone and skype will agree with me, that you are a beautiful person. You don’t have to do anything for them to earn their love. They love you for who you are.
You really don’t have any idea how sweet and lovely that you are. You have no idea how valuable you are to me. I am not talking about your future here. I am not talking when the whole world will know you. I am talking about right now. I am saying that you are valuable tot me right now. It is not just because you are a writer. Its not because of your posts on Facebook. It is simply your essence, the very core of who you are to me and others.
You treat all people with dignity, grace and love. You are kind and gentle to strangers. You are simply a demonstration of Jesus in this world. The other thing is that you don’t have an agenda with people. You are not sweet and loving to people so that you can convert them, you are sweet and loving simply because that is who you are. Of course you are more friendly to strangers because it gives you some human interaction when you spend most of your days alone at home. But even when you have plenty of friends you will be the same, I promise you.
You don’t have to work to please me, you please me just the way that you are. I need you to come to realise this. Ii don’t want you to do good works and write books to earn your salvation, I want you to do them from a place of rest. Take care.
Courts of Heaven 15
I see the courts. I see the four living creatures before the judge’s chair. I give them honour. I see the judge, my Father. He is smiling. I give you honour Father. I see elders in the court as well as Jesus, many angels and my personal angels. I give you all honour and praise. Thank you for being here.
I see the accuser. He says I am not worthy to be loved for who I am.
I agree with my accuser. No human was worthy of Jesus and his death, but though his sacrifice we were made worthy. I appeal to the court to find me worthy. I repent for trying to earn God’s approval through my works. I confess that I am already approved by him. I am worthy. Father please help me to feel that every day so I can enter into rest.
Father:
You are forgiven for thinking you are not worthy to be loved and for trying to earn your salvation. I speak blessings over you and ask your angels and the Holy Spirit to start to show you how beautiful that you really are and how worthy that you are. I judge you as worthy to be loved by and humans and by the angels.
I judge the accuser and send him to his judgement.
I write a scroll here with my own hand. It says, “Matthew is worthy to be loved” Please take hold of it in the spirit and hang it in the spirit on your wall next to your computer.
Trust:
We are going to show you how wonderful you are in days to come in a meaningful way so that you cannot forget who you are.
Elder:
Your life has produced an incense that is sweet and can be smelled in the presence of God. We admire you and love you.
Bethany my scribe angel (who helps me write)
You are a total joy to know. I have spent many years in heaven and have got to know Jesus very well and you are really like him. It is such an honour to be assigned to your life. Other angels in heaven congratulate me for my role in your life. You make my life so happy. You bring me so much joy. You are worthy to be loved.
Jesus:
You are one of the best friends I have ever had. You are loyal to me and so obedient to our leadings. I cherish you.
Matthew:
I want to thank Father for your love and your time. I honour you. I want to thank the four living creature for being here. I honour you. I want to thank Jesus for being here and speaking to me. I praise your name and honour you. I want to thank the elder that spoke to me and Bethany my scribe angel. I honour you both and give God praise for you. I leave the courts.