Journal 33
God:
How are you today?
Matthew:
I had a good sleep. Yesterday afternoon I was able to get to sleep. The night before last, I was not able to sleep to 5 am and that really worried me. I don’t like it when I can’t get to sleep. It is entirely different when I choose to stay up for nights on end, but I hate it when I try to sleep for 6 hours and I can’t sleep. It is very troubling for me.
God:
Jesus was able to speak to you and calm you down a little and shortly after then you fell to sleep. Your anxiety wasn’t helping you get to sleep. You were worried about staying up for days on end and that was just an attack of the enemy on your mind.
Matthew:
When I slept, I only slept for 3 hours and when I awoke I could no get back to sleep. That once again was a worry. I was worried most of the day until I went to sleep last night.
God:
It was a very real concern for you. We will look after you. Jesus has promised you that he will look after you. I guess sometimes thing just get a little overwhelming for you. When you are lying in bed all night struggling to get to sleep things can get very worrisome. I am pleased that you have caught up on your sleep now and you are well rested. I do care about these things. I care about everything going on with your life.
Openness and Vulnerability 33
Matthew:
What lie am I believing?
Father:
You are believing your healing is going to be too much for you. You keep in pressing this feeling down, but it is true that you don’t think that you will make it through. You think that you will have to give up midway through.
I am here to tell you that you are an overcomer and as such you are going to overcome and get through this. Other people have failed when it came to healing you as they did not have all the tools and your case was a complex one. This time Alex has the tools and he is not going to give up on you nor is he going to give in. While ever you persist and keep going forward he is going to get you healed.
Matthew:
I honestly didn’t know that I was believing this lie. I guess the lies are hidden from me and that is what gives them the power that they have over my life.
Father:
You just take each day of healing one day at a time. Be confident and sure that you are going to get through it and try not to be nervous at all. We are going to look after you and help you to get through everything that needs to be done.
Courts of Heaven 33
Jesus, take me to the courts.
I see the courts. I see gold and precious stones. I see the Father on his throne. I honor you Father. I see Jesus as my table. I honor you Jesus. I see angels and my personal angels. I honor you angels.
I see my accuser, He says I am weak and gutless.
I agree with my accuser. I am weak and a little bit gutless. I am going into healing to become stronger. The apostle Paul however gloried in his weaknesses so there is something to be said about being weak. I repent for being weak and without strength to fight.
Father:
You are forgiven. There is nothing wrong with being weak and being gutless is a matter of opinion. I see you as a strong overcomer who is going through some issues that need healing. Your weaknesses have not been hidden by you like so many leaders hide them. You are very transparent and people love that about you. I wash you afresh in the blood of Jesus.
I judge the accuser and send him to be punished.
I write a scroll for you, “When I am weak I am strong.”
Matthew:
Thank you Father. I honor you. Thank you Jesus and the angels. I honor you all. I leave the court