Journal 38
God:
How are you Matthew?
Matthew:
I slept in so I am well rested. I am in a strange sort of mood. I didn’t want to do my homework today, but I know that Alex holds me accountable and I know that I don’t have a good excuse to stop myself from doing it.
God:
I can understand you. It takes you about an hour to do and so I can imagine you not being up to it from time to time. It is an important discipline to have. It even more important to do on the days that you are not in the mood to do it. That is what we are building into you, a discipline to speak to me every day and record our words. This will benefit you both today and in the future when you will need to depend on my words each day.
I want you to know that I care about every little thing in your life. I care about it being hard for you to do your homework today. I care about you spending the time to write these words of mine. I want you to know that I here with you, in your house, and I am longing to wrap you in my arms.
I hug God. It makes me emotional.
Matthew:
It makes me really surprised that you would come to my house from heaven and give me a hug. I am amazed and overwhelmed with the love that you have for me. I see you sitting on my sofa and you are looking at me. I love you.
Openness and vulnerability 38
Matthew:
What lie am I believing?
Father:
You believe that you have to be different to be accepted by more people. The problem with this one is that you are always most comfortable being yourself and so thinking you have to be different all the time causes internal tension always in your life. You didn’t even know about this lie. That is the case with mot of the lies that we have covered so far. You don’t have to conform to what men and women would want from you, you simply need to obey us and do what we have called you to do.
You are a simple person. You are not complex. We love that about you. It is so easy to lead and direct you. You are so obedient. We have led you to interview saints and whilst that has blessed many people wo have read the books it has brought you under a lot of fire and persecution from people who are not open to it. These are the people you think you have to be different for. Yet, you cannot be different for them because that would mean you would have to stop interviewing saints. They would not be happy with you stopping, they would also demand that you stop having the previous books for sale. You simply could not make them happy, not matter what you did. I guess you should continue to follow our lead and continue to interview who we tell you to interview.
Matthew:
I renounce the lie that I need to change and be different for more people to accept me. I will continue to interview the saints that you call me to interview. I will commune with saints that you lead me to be friends with and interview the others that you call me to interview.
Courts of Heaven 38
Bob Jones take me to the courts.
I see the courts. I thank Bob for taking me to the courts. I see Bob next to me. I honor him. I see the Father on his throne. I honor him. I se Jesus next to Bob and me. I honor him. I see the many angels in the courts. I honor them. I see my personal angels. I hug them and honor them.
I see the accuser, he says I am not a good example of Christ
I can’t agree with this. I feel that I am a great example of Christ and this accuser seems to think that I am not a great example of Jesus to the world.
The accuser says my porn issues make me unworthy to be Christ’s ambassador
I agree that this addiction is troubling but I know the root cause will be addressed in time. When the root is dealt with I am sure this addiction will pass. Meanwhile when I associate with people on Facebook and in public I am a perfect model of Jesus. I repent for my porn.
Father:
I forgive you. Your issues will be dealt with in due time. It’s a good thing that you angels gave you a hug today. The accuser really wants to strangle you in your sin. He has a vicious way about him. You are my chosen and my beloved.
I judge the accuser and send him to be punished.
I write a scroll for you, “I am Christ’s ambassador”
Bob Jones:
Keep going Matthew. Keep on working toward you healing. Keep on eating right. Keep on exercising. I am proud of you for all the right reasons.
Matthew:
Thank you Bob. I honor you. Thank you Father. I honor you. Thank you my personal angels for the hug. I honor you. Thank you Jesus. I honor you. I leave the court.