Getting Right with God- Part 54

Journal 54

God:

How are you?

Matthew:

I am pretty tired. I have been sleeping normally and have not been sleeping in. It has been a struggle to fill in my days and therefore I have been tired most days. I guess I just have to cope with it.

God:
It’s just something to get used to my friend. I am happy that you have been keeping daylight hours. You are behaving normal. You just got your manuscript of Mary Magdalene Speaks from Heaven back from your editor today. Now you have send it off to be prepared to be published. It’s a whole new process for you since you lost your publisher. You will do okay.

Matthew:

I am hoping the process will be smooth and not too hard or complicated. For a person who knows what they are doing, it should be easy for them. I trust you know what you are doing with my life and book writing ministry. I trust you by faith. I say that, but underneath I still have some anxiety. I guess that would be true with every new thing that I do.

God:

Wendy and Darla will do a good job for you. You can trust me with this re-assurance. I will look after you. You can trust me with this matter. Even if it did not work with them, you could still hire a freelancer. But things will be fine for you. You tend to worry about a whole lot of things. You are a bit of a worrier my friend Matthew.

Matthew:

Yes, I am a bit of a worrier. That is true of me. I go from one worry to the next. I am happy that I have you to re-assure me along the path of life. You are good to me.

God:

It is my honor to be good to you. I am a good God and a loving God. It is my good pleasure to speak to you and help you through things. Like I have been telling you, I want to be involved with every single part of your life. Having you get your new process of publishing off the ground is something that I am keenly involved in. I care about every part of your life. I care about every part of the lives of people that read this. Take care.

Openness and Vulnerability 54

Matthew:

What lie am I believing?

Father:

You don’t think you can trust me in the big things. That is sad but it is true. It saddens me but you tend to rely on your own abilities and your own strength to get things done. You do get led by the Holy Spirit in many things and in that way you co-operate with heaven, but with many things you trust your own abilities and you don’t really trust me.

I guess that is where we need to work together and reason things through together and build trust. I want to be able to speak to your fear and totally crush it and see it disappear. With this publishing process, I wish that you had confidence in me when I said that everything is going to be okay.

We will have to work together and have you grow in trust. That is why it is essential that you grow closer to me through these journals.

Mathew:

Do you think I trust Jesus more? I think I do.

Father:

Yes, you and Jesus have been friends for forty years and you have built up trust with each other. Now it’s time that you come to trust me. We will address this in your counselling. There are many factors that brought this lack of trust about, and we will dismantle them all in time. Take care.

Courts of Heaven 54

Matthew:

Jesus, take me to the courts.

I see the courts. I see the Father, and he is smiling at me. I see Jesus and I give him a big hug. That is really sweet. I hug my personal angels one by one and they whisper things in my ears. I see angels in the court.

I see the accuser; he says I don’t trust God

I agree with him. I have a hard time trusting God. I repent for my lack of faith. I pray that the healing that needs to be done to open up my heart to trusting God may happen soon. I love you Father.

Father:

I love you so much Matthew. We will address these issues in time. You are so obedient and you are a total joy for us in heaven. Even though you lack trust you are faithful and sincere in your love of me. I wash you in the blood of Jesus. I give you a new lease on life.

I judge the accuser and send him to be judged.

I write you a scroll, “I am growing each day to trust God more.”

Matthew:

I thank Father. You are so good to me. I thank Jesus and give him another hug. He keeps me in his arms and kisses me on the cheek. I hug all my angels. They say such sweet things to me. I leave the courts.