Conversations with God-I get so Lonely

Hi Matthew, I see that you have a heavy heart.

Yes, God I feel like crying. I have a heart that is heavy you are right. The path that you have me on is a lonely path. I have few friends, and each day I am all alone. I hurt inside.

I love you my son. You are precious to me. You are a sweet fragrance to all that you meet. You demonstrate Jesus to the world that you are part of. Even your new pastor messaged you on Facebook and said that you are such an encouraging person. He has not spent much time with you but he knows that you are a sweet person. I wish that you could find passionate and faith filled friends. I wish that you could have people close to you that were on your level. But you have a calling on your life that is unique and has made you into a person that has a lonely walk.

It hurts so much. It really hurts me. There is nothing like emotional and spiritual pain. People must wonder how I come out with so many books. One of the reasons is that as I write I get to speak to people. As I write I get to share my feelings, my emotions and my knowledge. I long to spend time with people that can understand me. Through writing I get to connect with people. Even if we never meet, I still feel the release as though I am talking to a real person.

One of the reasons we have opened up the supernatural over your life is that we want you to have company. There is a real lack for friends for you on this earth and so we have sent some from heaven to spend time with you. One thing is that you don’t have to compromise your faith to speak with them. You don’t have to speak about meaningless stuff to get on with them. All of the saints that we send you, understand you and they have an intimate knowledge of me and my will for your life. I want you to be sure of your relationship with the saints. They are my provisions for your life and we don’t want you running from them because some people don’t understand the idea. I have so much to show you through my saints that I am going to send to you.

They keep me company that is for sure. It is true, they understand me and they understand your will in my life. I am happy that you see fit for me to speak to saints and meet with them. They are good to me. I am surprised sometimes at how popular that they are. Sometimes I wonder if I am worthy to meet them. I often don’t really understand my worth in your kingdom.

You are precious to me. You are going to be my voice and you are going to be used to bring many messages to earth for me and on my behalf. You have a real boldness and you are full of courage. We ask you to interview certain saints and make a book from the interviews and though it is hard for you, you go ahead and put it into motion. We up here are so very proud of you. You make us smile with glee. You are so courageous for us.

Perhaps it is because I love you so much. Perhaps it is because I know you have a great purpose for the interviews and the books that will come from them. I know that even if one person comes to the saving knowledge of Jesus through the books than it would have been worth the effort and the attack that I will get. I know people are going to be saved and I am going after them with all my heart and all of my money that you provide for me.

Yes, that is true. Your love has no limits. You will do anything for us and our will for your life. I love that about you. You carry our message and you have great faith. How are you feeling now? Speaking to me has taken away the pain in your heart. Knowing that I am here, and being able to listen to me, heals your heart. If you had plenty of friends, do you think there would be room in your heart to accept and embrace the saints from heaven? Do you think you would have the time to develop relationships with them? I think you know the answer to that. Being all alone can benefit many people. Have a good night.