Conversations with God- Trust

Book 4 Message 4

Trust

God:

How are you today?

Matthew:

I have been sleeping in during the day. Some would say I have been sleeping the whole day away. I am trying not to worry about it.

God:
You are pretty good at relaxing and not letting anxious thoughts take over you. You have learned how to guide your mind and move it away from focusing on things that worry or concern you. It is a way of self-preservation for you and you do it very well.

I notice that in these past few weeks as you have noticed your heart condition and your heavy breathing, you have often thought that if you had a gun that you would kill yourself. Those thoughts of yours have not gone unnoticed by me. I was there listening to your thoughts.

I want to promise you that I will always be there for you in your life. No matter how hard life may become for you, not matter what you have to endure, I want you to know that you can trust me to see you though and be there for you.

That is what the topic is about today. Trust. It would only be a lack of your trust in me that would lead you to suicide. To do that would mean that you would have given up your hope and trust in me.

I want you to know that I care about you. I know that you have your struggles and you sin. I know that it hurts you and that sometimes it all becomes too much for you to endure. That is when you need to call out to me and to lean on me.

You know that poem “Footprints” You need to let me carry you like that poem says. You have to be able to rest in me and lean on me. Life was not made for you to do it all by yourself. You are not weak for depending on me and running to me. NO! This makes you humble and strong in my eyes.

Matthew:

It seems that I am attacked on all fronts. Sometime it gets too much for me.

God:

I know my son. I see your life and I am with you. I want you to come to me and lean on me. Put your faith and trust in me. You don’t have to do things all by yourself. Lean on my Holy Spirit. Let go. Give me control. Let me take charge. Let me lead you further and in a more complete way.

You do very well to be led by the Spirit and you spend all day in his presence and that won’t change. But you need to come to me and unburden yourself and let me know how you are going and talk things out with me.

You are not meant to be an island. You were not born to be alone all by yourself all the time. Even if you don’t have humans around you, you can call on me at any time and I will come to see you. I love you so much. I am so proud of you. I am so happy with you.

You are like one of my favourite songs. Do you know when you are listening to music and an old favourite song of yours comes on and right away you heart is filled with love and peace and nice thoughts? Thinking of you is like that to me. It’s like a favourite song is playing.

Sometimes you look at your books sales numbers and you get sad. You want more people to be reading. You don’t know how the people that read your books feel. They become so overjoyed and they are so happy that you wrote the book that they are reading. Some of them after they read one book see that you have written over 38 books and they are captivated and shocked and can’t decide which one to read next. Some people’s lives that are readers of yours have totally changed and you have heard testimony to that effect.

Here you are looking at the total numbers and getting depressed while we are more focused on the individuals that you are touching and we are leading them to more of your books after they finish the first one. You are a wonderful writer and you are a simple man that is using his talent to the best of his ability. I am so proud of you, my son.

I want you to know that your struggle with sin, health, loneliness and other things will all be worth it one day. I am a God that makes all things work out for good for those who love me. (Romans: 8:28)

I delight in you. I watch you. I love to see how you are doing. I don’t only watch you when you are awake and being productive, I watch over you as you sleep. Every part of your life is interesting to me. I don’t love you for what you post on Facebook, or what videos that you make, or even the books that you write. I don’t love you for what you do. I love you for who you are. I love you because you are like my son Jesus. I love you because even though you have flaws you don’t give up and you don’t give in.

Don’t focus on suicide son. Trust me. I know what you go through. I know everything. I know about your future. I know how you are going to feel when you meet the Sadhu later in the year. I even know what he is going to say to you. I know that you will be nervous to meet him. I know your future Matthew and you are going to write many more books. You are going to bless so many people. You are going to have so many people learn from you.

Just like your hair grows on your chin naturally and you need to shave it once a week, people who know you are continually growing. They just grow naturally from knowing you. I really am happy with all that you do.

Many things have come against you and cause you to worry, but you need to come to me and ask me for my advice and my wisdom. You simply need to trust that I know what I am doing and what I am allowing in your life. I am watching everything and I am very happy with how you are living your life.

Be at peace my friend.

Matthew:

That lady on the dating site hurt me today
God:

Trust me for a wife my son. Trust me. I know what I am doing and you will be really grateful when she comes as you would not have tried in your own efforts to find her. That weighs on your heart also and I can see it is a concern. Trust in what Andrea saw in her vision for you and her.

Bless you. Good night.

Matthew:

Good night God.